It’s the end of the line, I guess.
That’s the problem that I have. And today, that behaviour or habit of mine, pissed the fuck out of me. Yes, I have to use that vocabulary to explicitly express the discontentment I have with myself.
At around 6pm, I was discussing some stuff with my colleague for some minor changes to the formula in the excelsheet and it suddenly dawn upon me that this was something I wanted to do long ago. But fuck, I procrastinated and never asked and for that, I had to do extra adjustments every month. You know somehow you get numbed by the things you do and really don’t give a shit to improvements anymore? Yea, that’s what I pissed about myself. Because I procrastinated and then numbed and settled and I didn’t want to move forward to work out a solution. So fuck procrastination because it leads to so many bad things. Fervency is the way to life!
And also, this anger in me has to go away. I realised I’ve been so angry with so many people/things recently, it’s turning me a tad bitter.
“Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might; for there is no work or device or knowledge or wisdom in the grave where you are going.” Ecclesiastes 9:10
I WANT TO SLAP THE SHIT OUT OF THAT COLLEAGUE OF MINE. SHE HAS BEEN TESTING ALL OF OUR PATIENCE THE WHOLE DAMN DAY. STOP COMPLAINING AND SEEKING PITY AND DEAL WITH YOUR MODERATELY SHITTY HEALTH, OKAY?
People like her clearly hasn’t seen the worst of things.
(I’m just ranting, but seriously, me feels like telling her off, but can’t. So I tell her off on tumblr.)
And…! There’s always a party pooper around, never failing to dramatise the situation and shit on everyone when it’s a happy occasion and for this case, eve of New Year’s eve.
What surprises me the most is, after so many years being in the banking industry, some people (actually it’s just one person I’m talking about now) just can’t handle situations that will indefinitely arise from time to time. When something goes wrong or something stressful happens, all she does is panic/go hysterical and this time, cry and be a drama queen, wanting attention from everyone. I really didn’t want to give a fuck, but I went over and “showed a bit of concern” before I jump right back into my work.
Given the rank that you have in your workplace, you jolly well shoulder the responsibility given. Things are bound to happen and what you should do is, shut the fuck up and find a way to work around the problem and not make bitch-decibel of noise and affect every single person around you. ARGH, wish I could tell her that in her stupid face and tell her to get a grip or fuck off.
Basically, she is everything she seems not to be; timid, can’t handle situation/stress and not as capable and quite an empty vessel in my opinion.
