Procrastination & Numbness
That’s the problem that I have. And today, that behaviour or habit of mine, pissed the fuck out of me. Yes, I have to use that vocabulary to explicitly express the discontentment I have with myself.
At around 6pm, I was discussing some stuff with my colleague for some minor changes to the formula in the excelsheet and it suddenly dawn upon me that this was something I wanted to do long ago. But fuck, I procrastinated and never asked and for that, I had to do extra adjustments every month. You know somehow you get numbed by the things you do and really don’t give a shit to improvements anymore? Yea, that’s what I pissed about myself. Because I procrastinated and then numbed and settled and I didn’t want to move forward to work out a solution. So fuck procrastination because it leads to so many bad things. Fervency is the way to life!
And also, this anger in me has to go away. I realised I’ve been so angry with so many people/things recently, it’s turning me a tad bitter.
“Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might; for there is no work or device or knowledge or wisdom in the grave where you are going.” Ecclesiastes 9:10
